January 2012
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A breakdown of the coming of 2012.
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December 2011
152 posts
Living with dudes.
Means we joke about porn and masturbating in the kitchen. Then have burping contests. Love it. Also, they give me compliments frequently and I get to bounce post-date overthinking off of them!
Vacation.
Sleeping in and playing tourist. Tomorrow’s excursions: The Met and the Whitney
COOKIES!
I’m single. Roommate’s GF is out of town. It’s freezing out, so I’m baking and cooking for us! Yay roommate time!
“People will show you who they are, but we ignore it because we want them to be...”
– Don Draper (via hipsterdiet)
I have to stop falling in love a man’s potential, the potential I see but they don’t.
youveescaped:
Are you so out of love that you
can't move fast enough away?
But if desire is acceleration,
experience is circular as any
Indianapolis. We keep coming back
to what we are—each time older
more freaked out, or less afraid.
And you are older now.
—from Tony Hoagland's "History of Desire"
Coming is easy.
Leaving is hard.
“New York is a fiction of sorts, a construct, a story, into which you can walk at...”
– Colum McCann
We're not traditional...
My mom found my uncle’s stash. We’re having family time with Louis CK standup- after they’ve smoked.
Brother and I are eating candy and drinking soda while our mom, her boyfriend and our uncle get high outside. Merry Christmas!
I love my family.
But I despise this place.
If for no other reason I need to move home...
Went to the movies and then dinner with my brother. At dinner he told me yesterday he had a breakdown and cried uncontrollably about missing our dad who died a few years ago. He was upset he couldn’t just call him and say hi.
He’d never tell me that over the phone. He’d only tell me something like that in person…and I live 3,000 miles away and only visit once a year.
:(
In a New York Minute.
My mom keeps commenting how I get up and rush around- even if I have nothing to do or planned. Can’t help it. Once I am up, I feel like I have to rush out and do something. I haven’t really been home. I can’t stand sitting around watching TV and I haven’t had one in almost 3 years so it’s meh.
Been really busy, even if just cleaning my mom’s house and doing...
I'm a city girl.
No way around it. I love city life.
In San Francisco today.
I love this city. Some day….some day…
“Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you...”
– Harvey MacKay (via jasperface)
PLEASE TELL ME.
My mom and her boyfriend who met both ex’s confessed they never liked them. Not like in retrospect, but right after they met them. The roommates also didn’t like either guy.
Holy shit people, please tell me this. I know I have to realize it myself but if you have valid reasons please please please always share your thoughts and be honest…even if that honesty hurts me.
Currently:
The dogs are sleeping in bed with me. I missed their cuddles. I think they missed me too.
Meh, but YAY.
Woke up tired of being sad and missing him. I don’t know, just bored with feeling this way and sick of it.
HEADING TO CALIFORNIA TONIGHT!!!!
I’ve resolved to go home and not waste/ruin my time there missing him/being angry/sad at him. So whatever lingering feelings I have that are getting me down will be resolved by the time I ladn in California. I don’t think you truly get...
I'm forward with my needs.
I am straight up with what my needs in a relationship are…even after they’ve ended.
I might have just made a pathetic, emotional, fool of myself but I feel better and that’s all that counts. Plus, I don’t fucking care. I emailed the ex asking him to ignore me if he sees me out in public. As I’ve said, we live less than a mile away. Just now my roommate told me he ran...
Sometimes I think NYC has ruined me...
The food, the nightlife, the variety and diversity, the arts…sometimes it’s hard to imagine being anywhere else. How I can I be happy without this?
I just take this to mean that I’m not ready to leave here and NYC isn’t out of my system yet.
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“Think of me in the depths of your despair.”
– Rolling In the Deep, Adele
Dear younger version of self...
So, you’ve had a very rough year. Honestly girl, after you turn 20 life is going to get real crazy. Like, unnaturally crazy… Like, things you’d never expect to deal with so young, but hey that’s how it goes. You didn’t cause them, but you’ll deal with the well and work very hard to get passed it. Yes, you’ll work very hard. They will always be with you...
Waiting.
One day I’ll wake up and not be sad. Today is not that day but I’ll keep going to bed and hoping to wake up back to my non-sad self…